One year ago tonight, I arrived back home after my last major abdominal surgery, the last in a very long list of things that had to be done when my appendix decided to rupture two years, three months, two weeks and four days ago when I was 34 weeks pregnant with Miles.
Casey and I feel a lot of emotions come up around these particular anniversaries. I know that I personally can feel like I'm instantly back in that moment, that day, when such-and-such was happening or a certain procedure was being performed. And we have talked about this day -- July 31, 2008 -- as being a big milestone for us, I suppose because now we are more than an entire year away from those events.
I am so thankful. I know I complain about the scars I was left from one crazy organ that just couldn't wait. I've had so many "it's not fair" moments I can't count them anymore. My eyes still very easily well up with tears when I think of some of those hospital nights, when I honestly thought it would never end.
But...here I am, telling you that I've made it to more than a year past all of that, and so I am thankful. There aren't many words beyond those that can say it quite right.
Casey and I feel a lot of emotions come up around these particular anniversaries. I know that I personally can feel like I'm instantly back in that moment, that day, when such-and-such was happening or a certain procedure was being performed. And we have talked about this day -- July 31, 2008 -- as being a big milestone for us, I suppose because now we are more than an entire year away from those events.
I am so thankful. I know I complain about the scars I was left from one crazy organ that just couldn't wait. I've had so many "it's not fair" moments I can't count them anymore. My eyes still very easily well up with tears when I think of some of those hospital nights, when I honestly thought it would never end.
But...here I am, telling you that I've made it to more than a year past all of that, and so I am thankful. There aren't many words beyond those that can say it quite right.
4 comments:
I am so thankful too! When you were sick, I think I prayed for you more than I have ever prayed for anyone. I just wanted God to make you healthy and strong so that you could be a wonderful mom to Miles. Praise God you are now doing just that!
(((hugs))) to you, Tracey! I can only imagine. I am so thankful that you are past that dark time.
I remember always asking Trevor how you were doing on myspace. I am so glad that you are way past that nightmare, and that I get to talk to you all the time now!!
Joy
Thanks so much everyone! I cannot tell you how much I appreciate -- still -- all the prayers that were given on my behalf at that time. So, so wonderful to know that was happening, and I know it was a huge part in my struggle back to normalcy.
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